Can you feel it beating?

Some times one does unforgiveable things, some times they're unforgettable. Some things belong to the past, and some times the past affects the present. I've felt like shit for the past two weeks. I've even started listening to Yellowcard, New Found Glory and maybe even Good Charlotte will come along, but I will not take it down to the depths of My Chemical Romance though.

Do you know when you feel so bad that each and every song you hear fits perfectly into your state of mind? It's like in "Can't Hardly Wait" where Preston (Ethan Embry) thinks that "Mandy" by Barry White is a sign for him to tell the love of his life, Amanda (Jennifer Love Hewitt) that he has never ever talked to, that he really loves her. (God, this is pathetic).

The great depression kicked in suddenly releasing an overwhelming flow of feelings I don't normally show. Luckily I got a needed hug from SF, CA. Thanks Jess, I appreciate it.

Anyhow, back to songs; I never thought I would put something like this up here, but, hey, what can you do. This is kind of how I feel:

Yellowcard - Breathing

Eyes are feeling heavy but they never seem to close
The fan blades on the ceiling spin but the air is never cold
And even though you're next to me I still feel so alone
I just can't give you anything for you to call your own

And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?
My heart's sinking like a weight

Something I've been keeping locked away behind my lips
I can feel it breaking free with each and every kiss
I couldn't bear to hurt you but it's all so different now
Things that I was sure of they have filled me up with doubt

And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?
My heart's sinking like a weight
I can feel you breathing
It's keeping me awake
Could you stop my heart? It's always beating
Sinking like a weight

How am I supposed to feel about the things I've done?
I don't know if I should stay or turn around and run
I know that I hurt you things will never be the same
The only love I ever knew I threw it all away

And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?
My heart's sinking like a weight
I can feel you breathing
It's keeping me awake
Could you stop my heart? It's always beating
Sinking like a weight



...and who can forget.

New Found Glory - Forget Everything

Can we pretend for one second that we are together
What's the point of keeping my feelings at bay
It takes alot of me
To get the nerve to wake up
Everyday

And what if I don't
Would you even care
Would you even care

Forget everything that we have done
Erase me
From your memory
Don't call
Don't ask about me until the day hell freezes over

I can't remember the last time I saw you smile
It might have been around this time last year
It takes alot of me
To get the nerve to tell you everything is ok

And what if I don't
Would you even care
Would you even care

Forget everything that we have done
Erase me
From your memory
Don't call
Don't ask about me until the day hell freezes over

It's gone
Before you know it
You can't let go of something you've never had
It's ash until you burn it
I hope I never see you again

And what if I don't
Would you even care
Would you even care

Forget everything that we have done
Erase me
From your memory
Don't call
Don't ask about me until the day hell freezes over

When hell freezes over

Jeez. I really need to lighten my mood. Only three weeks left to enjoy. Maybe time to put that frown upside down? Try to force it. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right?